It's a Girl!

Last Tuesday I had my anatomy ultrasound to make sure that everything looked alright with the baby. I'm still waiting for my next appointment on Wednesday to find out what the results are (I'm confident that the baby is healthy as a horse because it moves around quite a bit) but the big news of the day was that we got to see the sex of the baby! The results? She's a girl! So we named her Simone Regina Martin, and we went shopping for some baby girl clothes. We picked out her crib, her dresser, stroller, crib set, and the outfit that we're going to bring her home in. It was so much fun. Now I can hardly wait until Wednesday, when we find out the results of the anatomy scan and I get to ask all of the questions I've been meaning to ask at every appointment that's passed and just can't remember when I go. I am going prepared this time and I've written them all down!

A Letter From Mommy.

Dear Baby,
For the past two days I have been able to touch one of your body parts through my stomach. Feeling something so beautiful and precious underneath my fingertips has given me a feeling that is simply indescribable. It is truly a blessing to have you growing inside of me, and to know that I can give you an environment for you to thrive in. In only five days I will get the chance to see you again on a screen. Whether or not I will see if you are a little girl or a little boy is dependent on you, baby. I only pray you will cooperate for Mommy, but I want you to know that if you are shy on Tuesday, I won't be upset. Just seeing your delicate little fingers and your little heart beating strong in your chest will fill me with such a joy as I cannot describe. You are everything to me, baby. You are the reason that I wake up in the morning and the drive behind my every move. Keep growing strong inside of me, baby, and I will do everything I can for you when you come.

With All The Love In The World,
Mommy

Melancholy.

Today is not easy. I feel like a crybaby, even though I haven't cried once. These hormones are driving me nuts. I go through these really weird mood swings, mostly when I'm alone. It makes me scared to be alone, on my own, by myself for even five minutes. It gives me time to think about everything, and I don't like reflecting on things. For instance, I am so ready to be a mom, but I am so scared at the same time. It brings up worries in me I never thought I would have. What's going to happen with me? I know that no one knows the answer to this question except God, and that I just have to have a little bit of faith, but it's hard sometimes.